Karma payment plan

I cant explain it. I cant comprehend it. The first time really debriefing. Sitting  around diner talking about what we are doing, about what we have done. A second to think, diner with a lot of the people who have a special place in my heart connected to all of the roles I have played in Haiti. I feel strange talking about that first week after the earth quake, watching videos and looking at pictures of what was the chaos then and what is the chaos now.  Trying to imagine what it was like back then. how we speak casually of how traumatic things were. The question asked  “how can we ever return to normalcy?” then thinking about my local Haitians friends. what it must have been like for them what it is still like for them.

 

Seeing everything the transition from right after the earth quack to now. Things that went well things that deteriated. How can you leave .  still working the 20 hour shifts I used to but much different frustrations.  Realizing how much I miss my family how much I have seen and wondering how much this has changed me. I can never go back to what I was before.  But I have learned alot

 

The father who’s son was transferred by the French out of the country the  desperation surrounding him as I walked threw the airport field of countries looking for the French flag only to be disappointed more despair.

 

The children I have seen die, the families pain. The lack of organization, the lack of planning the lack of real services. Walking into a tent city carrying patient out on a bed,  rain, starvation.  Kid being beat by the police.  Craniotomy done in the room. The dead gentleman not revived from the CPR lying next to the new mother placenta on table….. but then the patient we transferred, the one that they thought would die, responding to verbal command, young boy a glimmer of hope.  Dropping of the supplies immediately needed. Collaborating with groups that have similar goals. Working hard to make a difference.  Getting the patient the care they need.

 

Help is still needed there are still tent cities with no tents, there are still hungry people and piles of rubble, and people dying… help