3:30 01/31/2010
its 3:30 and i listen to the conversations of people trying to orginize,i listen to the sounds of the planes landing over my head. ive never worked this hard and i feel like i will age to fast if i continue, my plane of staying in the hotel or going to the un base to relax interupted by the refusal of my night nurses to work nights. 3 of us have taken the lead as nurse coordinators but we are all needed all the time. tomorrow i will relax, i know that now matter what the need will be great and i will be more effective if i rest. its a hard call to tell shut down the triage and turn people away and it breaks my heart. in the laat two hours we had to more sad codes, and today at least 2 deaths. i sit with the son of the decease and i listen to his stories. at least the us army has given us 40 body bags now and 5 of their traned emts. we are doing amazing things here we are a 200 bed hospital and every second exspanding, now we just needed nurses.i am learning about connections and politics but also about world community. i have met some of the best people in the world here from canada argintina peru... we work as a team and i help the mexican rescue team to food and shelter. i know i ramble know it is late and i am tired. i cried today a raraty. i help take an ekg of my favorite patient. just 3 hours ago a news team interviewed him and i. 2 weeks ago i assisted in his amputation. the death, the pain, the hopelessness can be over welmlming and everyone stops you to ask if you can help them. at the same time the strangth and the spirit are stronge. the other night the whole tent broke out in song. i will try to write more and i will fix my tired spelling errors later... now i sleep for a couple hours and then the ground hogs day starts again... CommentsSusan Quinlan Sun, 31 Jan 2010 11:51:00
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